Endings are emotional. Whether you are relieved to see this horrible chapter finally close or whether you are feeling sad as you leave behind a place you love. Endings are bittersweet. Bitter because it hurts to walk away from something that matters deeply to you. Sweet because when one door closes another one opens.
Living in the past is an easy thing to do. Perhaps it is a personal weakness, but I often find myself getting lost in the recesses of my memories. It’s like a maze with no way out; no escape. Just more and more memories, more and more sentimentality, and more and more longing for what is gone. It’s a dangerous road to traverse and it only ends in pain and suffering. The past is gone and it’s never coming back.
Yesterday, I graduated college with a Bachelor’s of Art in Psychology. The future is a completely mystery as of now and my plans are vague to say the least. I’m completely lost. But, if there is one thing I have learned in these past four years, it’s that getting lost is sometimes the best way to find yourself. Right now is the real beginning of the future. The beginning of the rest of my life. And I plan on remembering it. So here’s one last final huzzah to my past four years. To the day I graduated 5th Grade. To my final day of Middle School. To my High School graduation. My last orchestra concert. My last High School drama performance. To my last fencing practice. My last Hillel service. My last day of college. I’ll file it away for now. Keep it safe and accessible for the rare nostalgic day. Nothing really ends forever, anyway. Let me end this with a quote from one of my all-time favorite shows.
“You wrote down all these things to say goodbye to, but so many of them are good things. Why not just say goodbye to the bad things? Say goodbye to the times you felt lost, to all the times it was a ‘no’ instead of a ‘yes,’ to all the scrapes and bruises, to all the heartache. Say goodbye to everything you really want to do for the last time, but don’t go have a last scotch with Barney–have the first scotch toasting Barney’s new life because that’s a good thing, and the good things will always be here waiting for you”-Lily Aldrin (How I Met Your Mother)